This blog is a part of self discovery, a symbol of my passion for writing - my madness, an attempt to be a part of the 'Write-A-Thon'. This is my space - beyond the judgement of others. Here, I dabble mostly in romance, poetry, shayari, book reviews, social issues that bother me and trending topics (venturing out of my comfort zone) with a dash of personal insights about life - an entertaining fiction itself!
is born and raised under strange circumstances and in a world of
darkness. But she thoroughly enjoys this world and her gloomy
ambience, until one fateful night. That night literally transforms
her whole life and destroys everything she possesses, leaving her
with nothing but complexes, phobias and depression. Despite that,
Sonya wants to lead a normal life like everyone else. A life
comprising of a normal family, a few good friends and a good romantic
relationship, but will her past allow her to have one? Sonya grows up
in various different situations and meets many good people who seem
better than the monsters of her past. But are they? This story is a
coming of age drama that follows Sonya and her life which is coloured
by deception, dilemma, seduction, tears, abuse and bloodshed."
Narayanan is from Tirunelveli, Tamil Nadu. He has been writing for
four years now and has written around 25 short stories before writing
his first novel, Sonya. Gautam has also penned scripts for a few
short films and loves movies, music and photography. He welcomes
feedback and constructive criticism and is active on his twitter
: Gautam Narayanan
YOUNG ADULT FICTION
reading the book I was terrified by its size. There are many books
that are fat and have tons of pages which can make the reader doze
off to sleep, as they pick it to read. But this book is a complete
page turner. Each and every page justified its reason of being a part
of this book. The storyline is very addictive and keeps you glued.
The author has done justice to all the characters and has described
each one perfectly to spin a perfect story.
novel was completely the opposite of what I expected when I saw the
cover page. I am actually surprised by the fact that a male writer
can encapsulate the deepest emotions and feelings of a girl so well!
The way the writer has scripted each and every human emotion and
thought processes in the simplest way possible is just worth
girl i.e Sonya in the book, is not a perfect one, she is flawed, just
like an ordinary girl. She does mistakes too. This is her story where
she isn’t just turning into a woman but becoming a strong one -
enough to face anything daringly that life puts her through.
author has superbly expressed the feelings of a woman. The plot is
likely to touch the heart of every woman. This book made me self
reflect. I felt like I learnt more about myself. Every incident is
relatable. Being a girl and facing certain issues in my life, this
book made me even more stronger. Gautam Narayanan has penned a
masterpiece which changed me as a person and made me questions many
is one of the books which leaves an impact on you. with simple yet
elegant way of explaining emotions that aren't easily understood by
many. This novel made me cry, made me rediscover myself and inspired
me. A must read for all book lovers. Congratulations to Gautam for
his hard work of 3 years! <yes, it took 3 years for him to finish
this fat book>
~ Gautam Narayanan is a gifted writer. I am sure he has
thoroughly enjoyed conceptualizing this book and has lived the
process of writing it. The cover of the book justifies the theme of
the book. Highly recommended!
I received a copy of book from the author in return for
my honest review.
realized that some relationships are transient but nonetheless
beautiful and enriching for all that.
been said that a relationship is a lot like a painting. I tend to
disagree. Well yes, a relationship does indeed begin much like a
painting, with a blank canvas and infinity ahead. And relationships
do need solid foundations, much like the background layers on a
watercolor. But beyond that, how similar are the two, really? For any
true work of art, the artist works his way across the canvas with a
definite goal in mind. Relationships, on the other hand, aren’t
entirely constrained by the participants. They sometimes flourish and
more often flounder, occasionally doing both.
and timing come together in a thousand different ways to encourage a
burgeoning new relationship, or to whittle away at the bedrock of a
marriage, or sometimes even place prop upon prop to buttress the
sweet beginnings, only to wash away the entire romance in a flood of
bad luck and incompatibility. A relationship therefore, is a living,
breathing entity with a mind of its own. All we can really do is ride
upon its back and hope for the best. You might place a bullet in its
chest and bury the beast, leaving it for dead. And indeed you may
have killed it, but you are just as likely to see it gamboling back
to you as alive as on the day you first saw it birthed into being.
Both a blessing and a curse, a relationship is what you make of it.
You might find your paths diverging in the woodlands, and it may be
time to shed a tear and whisper a goodbye. Other times, you collide
with each other as you turn a corner and all you can do is brush
yourself off, take a deep breath and say ‘Hello'.
will be a small corner of your heart, somewhere between those veins
and arteries, which will belong to him/her forever.
breakups, especially those from long-term relationships, involve
walking away from a good thing. There are still many positive aspects
to a relationship that ends, it's just that those good things start
being outweighed by the bad things. Or even harder, a realization
that there are bad things to come, and so you make a pre-emptive
breakup. One of the hardest parts of breaking up is remembering this
ratio, the underlying logic of the decision, and not fixating on all
the wonderful parts of the person you're walking away from.
finally, it's difficult to recalibrate your sense of self as someone
who "doesn't have a partner." Your identity becomes tied up
in the partnership. You train yourself to think of their happiness
along with yours, to plan events that you'll both enjoy, to think
what they'd say before you make decisions. The process of unlearning
that is arduous, and becomes a constant reminder of what you've lost.
Similar to the reimagining of the future, this pops up in all sorts
of small ways that hurt each time, as you slowly break the habit.
Ultimately, though, this is the reason you broke up in the first
place: because you wanted to be an individual more than you wanted to
be a pair. It just takes awhile for your identity to catch up. And
the worst part is, you don’t even know how to put a closure and
lift your belief off those beautiful empty promises. Because putting
a closure with this person feels like cutting away this large chunk
of your heart! Is there even a way to time travel and undo all the
memories that have crowded your heart?
The positives :Break
ups are like second chances to live your life. After the pain, you
will feel a sense of waking up from a deep sleep. You will get time
to work on yourself. Either you pull yourself out of the storm or let
it carry you to another shore.
love empowers you. It does not choke you.
may be important to people but not all the time. The biggest
challenge is to accept this. LET GO.
is not fair. It never was and will never be. We just have to live it
anyway making the best of ourselves and giving our best to others and
being good and truthful.
is a universal truth we all have to face, whether we want to or not,
everything eventually ends. As much as I've looked forward to this
day, I've always disliked endings. Last day of summer, the final
chapter of a great book, parting ways with a close friend. But
endings are inevitable. Leaves fall, you close the book. You say
goodbye. So, say goodbye to
everything that was familiar, everything that was comfortable. Move on.
will leave you. Often without any reason.
One moment it
will be so real but will soon be a distant memory.
Life will go on. Without apologizing.
can even meet 3 boys or 3 girls back to back on the same date, and
pick out the best one. If not, you can meet the next batch of
like shopping. Just like you visit a store and check out a hundreds
shirts to buy one who suits you best, same way you jump into the
arrange marriage market and chose the best one out of the lot.
really are they the best one? Some girl's side always want a man
who's rich, who's earning in lakhs, who owns a car and a house, who's
parents are really good, and seek no dowry. Some boy's side want a
girl who's fair, white (as a bulb), slim, tall (not taller than the
boy), educated (not more than the boy obviously), who can be a
perfect wife and daughter in law. And of course dowry is welcome.
Horoscopes are matched. Rahu, ketu, shani decides whether or not two
people could be good life partners. Understanding and compatibility?
Lol, what's that dude? Rahu ketu rocks!
guy meets the girl, for maximum half an hour, in some cases 10
minutes, in the presence of parents and families sitting right in the
next room (yay so much privacy). The guy and girl are terrified,
often asking common questions like hobbies and passions and alcohol
and education and jobs, etc. After 10-30 minutes, the families
enter back because according to them 25 year olds can choose a life
partner in just 10-30 minutes. A life partner and a pizza are equal,
both should take 30 minutes. These are the same families who takes
forever to finalize even a TV. But when it comes to arrange
marriages, 30 minute rule should be followed.
can anyone, ANYONE, understand how the other person really is in just
10/30 minutes? HOW? The second meeting is only permitted when you say
yes in the first. If you say no, the second meeting is not happening.
How is anyone supposed to really know about someone in such
in the modern times, people can communicate more via mails, messages
and calls. But still the time period, the communication is just too
less in arranged marriages. It can take years to know a person.
Sometimes is does work in the favour because of the surprise element,
but more often than not, there are lot of incompatible couples almost
forced to live together because of the social boundaries of the
not that the arranged marriage setup is totally bad. I'm sure it does
have it's own advantages, but as India is progressing, I really wish
it looses it's importance. People should be allowed to choose their
own partners, according to their own compatibility, and not on the
parameters of caste, religion, money and looks.
are very common in arranged marriages, lies about salary,family backgrounds, previous relationships,habits, the girl puts up the best dress and make up, that's a lie
too. The guy puts up his best behavior, lie. If you have to marry
someone, shouldn't that person see your natural face and behavior?
biggest flaw of arranged marriage is that it's just like a game of
gamble. If you're lucky, you can hit the jackpot, if not, then only
Lord can save you.
marriages, people just scan around and quit, thinking it will not
hurt feelings as there is no bonding between girl and boy. But it
hurts some individuals, to
be treated as commodities.
matrimony profiles are not truthfully filled, because it is filled by the parents, most of the times. For e.g someone is a non drinker/non smoker
as per their profile; this can be because the parents don't know this
fact about their kid, or that the parents know and conveniently leave this
out to broaden the scope of potential matches.
history are not usually revealed in this process. The most commonly
hidden ones are depression, epilepsy, impotence, night blindness,
heart issues. Have personally heard or come across many such cases
which eventually ended up in messy divorces.
Indian males are confused a lot. Especially the ones who are earning
comfortably well and are pretty settled in their careers. Sometimes, I
pity them and mostly they invoke pure disgust in me. They feel
threatened when they talk to a girl who has her own mind.
certainly not good looking at all (I know it's shallow to even type this!), yet expect to find
beautiful and pretty girl
their fucked up standards).
Often the excuse given for the beer belly, dark circles, receding
hairlines and tobacco stained teeth is
job pressure and the fact that they earn better than the
So money justifies everything, wow. But if you are 28 and look
like a 40 year old, then it’s not just aesthetics that are going
against you, but it clearly shows you are not physically healthy and
take your health for granted. Isn't it?
everyone, except the bride and the groom : Even
the opinion of a distant relative, who was virtually invisible until
then, begins to take more precedence than the bride/groom.
Management: It pivotal to understand that that the current
generation is leaps and bounds ahead of older ones. We don’t
blindly follow things but we need to rationalise everything and then
decide what suits us best. So first and foremost don’t judge the
boy or the girl from your expectations (in-laws/parents), rather
appreciate how well suited they are for each other. Also,
understand that the girl didn’t spend the last 25 / 28 / 30 or 32
years of her life to just become "the wife". Don’t let marriage be a
deterrent in her professional growth or whatever her aim in life is.
The boy and his parents should not look for someone ONLY to clean,
cook, look after the house, and take some work load off the mother -
Maids are better suited and qualified for these tasks, not a wife.
That doesn’t mean a girl wants to run away from all these
responsibilities, or I am looking down upon maids, but these responsibilitiesshouldn’t be her ONLY part of life, after marriage.
try and pressure a girl by saying she is a part of the "new" family.
The girl is as much a part of the new family as the boy is of her’s.
Respect, love and honor is a two-way street. It mustn’t be
demanded, rather earned.
PARENTS - Also, parents must learn to cut the umbilical cord. Don’t
expect them to move-in with you. Let the couple figure out what works
best for them. There is no rule that says, what worked for one will
work for all. Let them make their life the way they want, face the
hurdles together, make mistakes and learn from them. That’s what a
marriage is, right?